Sometimes the future can be scary. I am going to be a college graduate in less than four months and am terrified. Don't get me wrong I have never been more excited about anything in my life than finally ending my seemlesssly neverending student status, but I don't know how to not be a student. I have been in school for 17 years. I am going to have a killer time transitioning to not having a three month summer and one month Christmas...how do people work that much?! I think the reason I am so apprehensive about graduating is because I am terrifed to try and secure a career. I am graduating into a horrible economy with little or no money or jobs in social services. Because of the child welfare grant I accepted, I agreed to work for the Department of Child and Family Services in the state of Utah for two years and must try and get that job as soon as I graduate. That would be fine if I knew that when I graduate there will be a job available for me and I can begin working off my two years, but there is no guarantee of a job, in fact there is little chance of there being any jobs, not to mention there are 12 of us all in the same boat going for the same jobs. So either I don't get that job and keep putting off my two year requirement, or I take the job and probably end up commuting out of Cache Valley each day, which I really don't want to do, so yeah you could say I am nervous for the future. I am one of those peole that likes to have everything planned out to a T and know exactly what and when I am doing something. Spontaneity is not my strong suit. Not to mention that the second I graduate my student job is over and I will be out of a job and I really don't want to have a layover of time with no work. Ahhhh!!! I know that this is probably normal for any soon to be graduate to feel, but I still hate it. Oh well, I will just relish in the thought of no longer have tests, papers, 7:30 a.m classes, and professors that drive me nuts. The positives definitely outweigh my fears.
This past Sunday was my friend Nate Rowley's homecoming. Finally my last good friend is home so now everyone is home, unfortunately our lives are much different since high school so we still never get to be together with the old high school gang...maybe someday. I was able to see all of my friends and catch up it was a lot of fun and there was great food. I wanted to take more pics and get a group pic, but the second I started snappin pics my camera died...typical!
BFF's for Life
Camera shy...not these two!
...and my cold sore is so cute don't you think...who doesn't love to have a huge sore right on your lips!
2 comments:
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Love how I finally find your blog and your first post includes a total jab at my photo-taking fabulousness!
ha jk -- mark is the total photo snob not me.. :)
Love you, hope all is well.
And you better believe I'm totally going to stalk you on here now. yay!
you need a new post asap! i've waited too long and you know you don't want to keep mikey waiting... or else ANYTHING GOES!
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